Monday, March 21, 2011

My Job

To put it short, I'm not a fan of my job. Some days it can be good, while others it can be bad. Just like any job really.

The parts I dislike however is that I have to work 6 days a week with the SAME EXACT people. You could say they're like family cause there's times I love them, and times I "dislike" them. Probably because of the amount of time we spend with each other. For one, when it comes to what I want to do with my life and how to get there, not very supportive. Not to say I need their support but when holding that stuff in for so long or getting negative criticism everytime it's brought up, it can get say the least.

Not to mention they can't take anything they dish out. I'm I guess what you'd call the "pick-on-buddy". It doesn't bother me cause I can take it and don't take it personally. I love laughing at myself. It's never a matter of "not sticking up for myself" cause ultimately I don't care and if they do say something offensive, I call them out on it. BUT, whenever I make a joke towards them or call them out on something, that could be the SAME scenario or situation as something they've done to me, they get offended and pissed. Not to mention they act immature about the whole situation by dropping comments that are below the belt....and they know it. I constantly use this as motivation to get out and into a job I love doing.

Bottom line, this is me venting. I don't like to complain about these things cause I feel like when it's actually spoken, it sounds silly. So I'm writing it down...or typing I guess.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

I Want an Adventure

I feel like I'm in a state/stage/phase, or whatever you'd call it, in my life where I just want to let loose. Lately I've had urges to go on some kind of adventure, big or small, or something exciting that gets my adrenaline pumping. I realize most guys have these urges but it seems like the urge has been more strong since I've been out of my "teens". It's as though my 6 year old self is trapped in my 21 year old body. You know how when you're young you daydream about being in car chases, skydiving, etc. Well it doesn't help now that I have the tools, money, and the means to do those things. Such as having a car and wanting to be in a car chase. I find myself now, when listening to certain music, accelerating on highways and "slightly" weaving in and out of cars. I know I know....I'm that guy.

There's so many things I want to do now that I know I won't be able to when I'm older. This due to a wife, kids, more bills with less money, or even won't physically be able to. I wanna do things like go on a road trip with friends. Go base jumping, cliff jumping, bunjee jumping, and any other kind of jumping you can think of. I want to travel and meet new people and experience different things. I would like get and ride bikes; this being both kinds, motorcycle and bicycle. In the summer I want to wakeboard, knee-board, jet ski, and anything else you can think of doing on a lake. I especially want to start camping more. I absolutley love gathering around a campfire with friends and talking and laughing.

I want to do all these things now because I haven't gotten to do them, or if I have not as much as I would've liked, in my past. Plus it seems the window for these opportunities are short on life's schedule. From now on back I've had to go to school and have a job leaving me without time and money to do those things. Most of my money has gone to expenses not leaving me with much to make these dreams realities. I feel now is different though and I'm wanting to take advantage of it. The adventure begins now and I do not want to look back. It's time to live with some adrenaline....and I am so stoked.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Pros & Cons of Growing Up

As I've come to grow older, I've learned to love it while at the same time hating it. So, I've decided to list the pros and cons of a natural part of life....growing up.

More responsibilities
Having your own income
More freedom....most of the time
Deeper thoughts
Deeper relationships
Tend to be taken more seriously
Developing your own family

More stress
Harder work
More expenses
More complicated
Life is less forgiving
Loved ones die
More decisions

Pretty basic answers. Could go more into detail but....just didn't.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

The Barbarian Way

One of my favorite books is The Barbarian Way by Erwin McManus. So many good quotes in this book it's overwhelming. He explains how the life of a Christian should be barbaric or be lived at a barbaric point of view. We as Christians are described as aliens because our way of living is unheard of. The way we give. The way we talk. The way we live. It's different. McManus explains this throughout the book providing examples throughout scripture and Jesus's teachings.

"God's will for us is less about our comfort than it is about our contribution. God would never choose for us safety at the cost of significance." Brilliant right? When we decide to become followers, we decide to leave our lives of comfort. We model our lives after the life of Jesus and his did not scream "comftorable". And I love the way he explains that God wouldn't choose safety for us at the cost of significance. Where would we be if people played it safe? I realize that sounds incredibly "original" but that doesn't make it any less true. Who wants to play it safe when you can have an adventure. That's the call of a disciple! "To be filled with the Spirit of God is to be filled with dreams and visions that are too compelling to ignore."

Ok here's a scenario. You're at your local Walmart and you hear of a person asking for money so they can get a ride home (feel free to input a different means of them asking for money). You decide you're going to help them out. So, you give them a $20. Nay, you're feeling generous. You give them $30. They thank you and they use it for its intended purpose.

Now, same scenario, different outcome. Instead of giving them $30, you take out your wallet/clip/treasure chest, or whatever the heck you keep your presidents in, and give them everything. Yeah, that's what I said. EVERYTHING. For sake of argument lets throw out some real numbers....$160. Not cheap but ultimately not a lot either. Whichever way you look at it, quite a bit of money given the circumstance. And all you say is, "Here, get yourself a ride home and use the rest to bless someone with." or something of the sort. That'd be ridiculous would it not? In fact, that'd be barbaric. But my how that person would think about that afterwards.

That's what I'm talking about. To live a life of a radical. A Barbarian. To live a life of adventure and excitement for our Christ is a life worth living. For "to live is Christ and to die is gain." And I know, would it be comftorable? Probably not. Would it be safe? Not always. But the fact you're living your life as a disciple...

what a rush.

Apealing? Maybe not to some. But I say bring it on.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Someone Get Me Some Miracle Grow

I feel myself growing, and I love it.

I love being pushed to exceed expectations.
I love being pulled into something to make me a better person.

I feel myself growing, and I love it.

Thursday, December 9, 2010


Ever have those days where, for some reason, you feel overwhelmed at how many thoughts you have? Or even what they're about? It's the same amount, or same kind, of thoughts that keep you lying awake at night because for some reason...

Today's one of those days.

My mind is racing with so many questions and thoughts and worries that I just don't know where to start or even what to do with them. Worst part is that there's no reason I should be thinking about these things let alone worried about them. And as if to cause a chain reaction, these days tend to make me a little depressed and impatient. I feel it's a test God is giving me to test my patience and faith so that I may be given the chance to perservere and grow. I believe that when you ask God for things, more specifically qualities, he gives you the opportunity to work on those qualities. Which makes sense giving the fact I've been praying for a patient heart. With circumstances like these, it's always helpful to have someone to talk to. Let me rephrase that, someone you trust that you can talk to.
Someone wise.
Somone who listens.
Someone you trust will look at you the same after the conversation. People like this are hard to find. It seems that you have to go to certain people with different subjects to avoid arguments, cynicism, or bad advice because of today's society. For instance, you don't go to a prideful person when dealing with a humble subject/situation. All your doing is creating problems. And if you don't have somone to go to, you end up fighting with yourself. You wrestle with your own struggles behind closed doors and begin to become unhealthy
And spiritually.
The background on my phone definitely helps though. "...present your requests to God. And the peace of God....will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Mostly when times like these strike, I pick up my acoustic and play til my fingers bleed (not literally obviously) but currently, while I'm writing this, I am at work. Which ultimately doesn't help matters but since I need the money complaining does me no good. Kind of a "get over it" attitude, if you will. I realize this comes off as a pessimistic post but, as much as it pains me to admit this, blogging helps with struggles since it's now "out in the open".

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

30 Favorite Things to Do

A list of 30 favorite things to do:

1) Relax
2) Watch good movies
3) Play Call of Duty
4) Read a good book
5) Go camping
6) Campfires and roasting over campfires
7) Campfire talks
8) Deep talks/Spiritual talks
9) Teaching
10) Designing
11) Filming
12) Basketball
13) Ultimate Frisbee
14) People watching
15) Working out
16) Meditating
17) Naps
18) Window shopping
19) Hanging out with friends
20) Road trips
21) Rollercoasters
22) Amusement parks
23) LIVE football games
24) Random nice gestures
25) Pranks
26) Walks
27) Tennis
28) Mini Golf
29) Sledding
30) Cliff Jumping